Thursday, September 23, 2010

Regrets....

Do I have any?  Of course, don't we all?  A wise friend keeps telling me REPEATEDLY that the only thing to truly regret are the things we DON'T do.  I have to say I completely agree with her.

Over the last two weeks I have gone a little mad for my music.  It seems to go in spurts.  This month it has been all about the traveling.  I have flown to New York City and driven to Cleveland. I've book a flight for Los Angeles and budgeted for stays in Canada and Michigan.  I won't even go into how many Cd's I've purchased or tunes I have downloaded...legally of course!  Last month on the other hand consisted of barely finding the enthusiasm to tell people about my favorite Internet radio station let alone promoting a few of my favorite fellas.

I think I've figured it out....I get bored.  I'm tired of the same 'ol crap on the radio and the talentless (mostly) top 40 I keep getting spoon fed and when the tedium of it all gets to me I start looking for experience to wake my soul up.  Melodramatic I know....but can anyone out there tell me that they don't do the same thing?  Perhaps music isn't your thing. Perhaps it's a good book or a fabulous meal. Perhaps it's going out dancing or staying in and making mad monkey love.  Whatever your escape is, isn't it all about feeling alive?

Bob Malone ~
Photograph by J. Mackinder

Music wakes me up.  From the tip of my toes to the very end of my nose, good music makes me feel alive....and a show, a good show where the artist sounds as good if not better live, makes me forget the burdens that I've piled up on my own shoulders.  And if I'm really lucky I will go to a show where the artist allows me to help.  Usually it's helping to sell the merchandise.  A small thing but I think it takes a load off the performer and helps them be less distracted so they can put on a better show and interact more with the fans. For me, being a part, even such a small part of the nights success makes the entire event that much more memorable.  I ride that high for days.  I admit it...music is my drug of choice.

I'm an accountant.  By my very nature I tend to over think things. Count every penny, consider all the consequence, over analyze and play it safe way too often.  I act against that very nature when it comes to music.  If I had counted every penny I wouldn't have gone to NYC to see the amazing Bob Malone perform at the Iridium Club.  When I realized my HOTEL room was going to cost more that my airfare I was a bit disgusted and almost canceled. And I certainly wouldn't have driven to Cleveland (4 hours away) on what I suspect was a broken foot. My very practical side thinks that is just insane. 

On the other hand if I hadn't gone I would have miss a fan'tabulous performance by Bob, the opportunity to help him out and more importantly, I would have missed out of the completely unexpected delight of hearing Jessy Carolina and the Hot Mess while out to dinner in NYC. 

Brendan James
Photograph by Josh Newton
If I hadn't gone to Cleveland I would have missed out on seeing Brendan James perform for the first time and being blown away by the purity of his voice and the realness of his lyrics. Not to mention missing out on watching those beautiful hands at the keys....and that truly would be something to regret.

If I regret anything it's that it took me so many years to be open to all the possibilities.  Watch out world! I plan on making up for lost time!